I was dead and I came back to life. just because that is so doesn’t mean that life has a sparkly newness to it. doesn’t mean that things look different. it doesn’t mean you actually want to be alive now.
fake it ’til you believe it is people’s mottos. they say if you just keep saying you want to live, you will want to. ha.
fake it fake it fake it.
pretend it all matters.
pretend that life isn’t in stalemate.
Pretend people actually want to hire you.
pretend that you can get out of your parents home.
pretend that you exist to others.
fake it fake it fake it ’til you believe it.
In actuality I didn’t come back to life…I am just the living dead.