Black Friday

Have you ever been close to death? I have.

If you’ve known me long enough you’ll know the story.

I don’t feel like going into details.

But in the moment of that choice did I regret making it?

That is the question I pondered Friday.

Did I in those seconds before blacking out regret trying to kill myself?

No. I did not. I wished to die. I wanted to die. I still want that to be.

We make a choice in life and maybe that choice lives with us always.

Maybe there are those who are never meant to be here.

And maybe, just maybe, I am one of those people.

It all just keeps piling, brick upon brick, upon my chest, lungs, throat and heart.

I feel that weight squeezing the life out of me.

Put me out of my misery. Please.

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One thought on “Black Friday

  1. hugs
    we may never really know why we are here and i dont feel we should try to figure it out as i dont feel we can.
    i am personally glad you didnt die then.

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